Check yo tits.

Do not take your tits for granted. They may cause you pain and soreness when the time of the month rolls around, but they can also help you skip the line at the club or get you a couple free drinks from time to time (you know you’ve still got it!).

It is Breast Cancer Awareness month and I want to encourage all of you ladies to get your breasts examined. I’m going to share with you something very raw and real and hopefully leave you very grateful for your boobies, and also encourage you to check them and get them checked!

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2012
When I was 18 years old, I found a lump in my right boob. I instantly felt like there was something wrong with me and that I was going to die. That same year I got a biopsy which means they basically took a needle and sucked some of that lump out to test it. (This hurt like a bitch and my mom could hear me swearing at the doctor from 3 doors down)

Results: Benign. So I didn’t get it taken out.

2014
Age 20 and I found another lump. Freaked out. Got an ultrasound to see if it looked like the last lump and if it did (shape + size) then I wouldn’t need to take it out and can just monitor it to make sure it doesn’t grow.

2015
It grew. It grew to almost the size of a golf ball. Yes, a god damn golf ball I do not kid you. If you’re trying to imagine a golf ball right now and saying “holy shit” in your head… so was I but 10x worse lol.

Everyday up until I got my surgery I felt like there was definitely something wrong with me, or that I had breast cancer. I felt super insecure when my boyfriend and I got intimate and he touched my boobs. I was scared that it would make him feel uncomfortable and not want to touch me or have anything to do with me.

2016
February 2016 I finally got surgery on my right boob to have the lump that had been growing taken out. This procedure was painless (cuz I was knocked out) and I had a super fast recovery.

Results: Benign, but if I have another lump it could be cancerous. (scary ass shit)

Today
I recently found another lump and this time its on my left side. I went in for an ultrasound last Wednesday and I am waiting for my results now.. fingers crossed everything’s A-OK.

As you are checking, just know that if you do think you’ve found something to not panic and freak out. One thing I have learned is to stay calm because I have heard that stress can sometimes cause lumps. Also never assume, so go make an appointment with your doctor and get an ultrasound.

Below I’ve put together a few tips I found online on how to check a lump.

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I know this is a very personal subject to speak out about and I just want to put it out there that this kinda thing happens to a handful of women and I am here to best answer any of your questions if you have any. So if you have any questions or concerns do not hesitate to contact me. I do have certain foods that I refrain from eating so if you would like to know more about my diet leave me a comment!

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Leaving the nine-to-five.

I just finished running a quick work errand before I headed back to the office and I see a girl walking on the street with her Lululemon yoga mat in one hand and a cold pressed juice in the other.

My exact thoughts, “It’s 11 in the fucking morning… does she not have a job? I bet she’s heading home right now to make herself a post workout avocado on toast.”

I need her job.

The scene I just described to you happened to me about half a year ago. No joke, and was one of the moments that made me realize that I needed to leave my 9-5. Let me just start off by saying that I didn’t hate my job. I loved my job but I needed a change in environment and more growth because it started to feel like the same shit, different pile.

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The Ah-ha Moment

Ah-ha backwards is still ah-ha. haha. (Was that a lame dad joke?)

What does an ah-ha moment in life look like?

To me: The ah-ha moment is the moment you say, “I am worth it.”. The moments where you find yourself saying those exact words are the moments you know you’ve struck gold. You know because it’s either a familiar feeling that you haven’t felt in a while and it feels just right or it’s a feeling you know by heart.

When I feel as if I’m loosing ‘me’ I some how always manage to rediscover myself.

What do you know in your heart that you need to let go of, in order to let yourself breathe?

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Cyber Bullying – My Story

Many things in this world you just can’t explain. You can’t explain why sometimes when sitting down you tend to shake your leg. You can’t explain why sometimes you have a tendency to bite your nails. Sometimes you can’t explain why some people in this world have so much time on their hands, to want to try to sabotage your life through cyber bullying.

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Ladies.

“Figure out who you are separate from your family, and the man or woman you’re in a relationship with. Find who you are in this world and what you need to feel good alone. I think that’s the most important thing in life. Find a sense of self because with that, you can do anything else.”

– Angelina JolieCosmopolitan Magazine

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